Archive for January, 2013

Ladies and gentlemen, this is some well spoken truth! God loves. We must love others too.


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God is an amazing God.

As of late I have been acting like a spoiled, disobedient child.

(My mom can testify!)

I continually squawk aloud to God and anybody else who’s listening.

I keep saying, “Why not now? Why do I have to be patient? I hate being patient. I hate this. I hate that. Why is life so darn unfair to me?”

My complaints are endless.

And then through the mess of everything God reminds me that He loves me.

I am a wretch. And God loves me!


I love the song Call Me Out, by Gungor (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iijC7S1pI4k)

“I keep on falling

I keep on falling short

This world keeps bringing me down

You keep on calling
You keep on calling me
I’ll keep on running
I’ll keep on running home

This world is dying
This old world’s dying now
But a new one’s dawning
And You keep calling us out

Out, call me out,
You’re calling me out”

When I run and run and run, Christ is already running way ahead of me.

He knows what I am going through.  He knows my heart’s desires.

He knows everything that there is to know. Incredible!

James 1:2-4 (NASB) declares, “Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.”

I was reading through my past journal entries last night. And in the past God has proven His good and perfect will to be true. Why do I fear now? 

Jesus, I trust You. Thank You for Your forgiveness and Your lovingkindness.

Let those words be ever on my lips.

 “Because thy lovingkindness is better than life, my lips shall praise thee.” Psalm 63:3 (KJV)

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A New Year

Attending a private Christian school which is also a university model has it’s perks. We were given about a month off for Christmas break, how wonderful it has been. Of course, I had written out this long “To Do List”, and I have yet to even complete a third of it. I love making goals, but when I am not successful I sulk and discourage myself.

As I have been learning, life is not solely focused around to do lists. Or at least it shouldn’t be.

Life is about experiencing, learning, and cherishing.

This break has been very relaxing. I have spent lots of time watching Love Comes Softly movie series (Yes, I do love cheesy Christian cowboy movies…), organizing my room, reading books, laughing with my family, and catching up on sleep.

Productivity has been weak, but memories to treasure has been strong. 

As it is the last day of 2012, I may as well mention a few things that God has taught me from this past year:

– Finally came to the realization that being home at my age isn’t a bad thing, and thankful that I will be living at home for at least my first year of college.

– Living materialistically is worthless. Living for God is worthwhile.

– The closer I become with God, the more I desire to serve people.

– My relationship with my mom has strengthened, and I hope it will continue to do so.

– Flexibility within a big family is needed, and God gives you the patience to do so.

– My story, is my story. God created it unique. It’s okay that I am not dating anyone. It’s okay that I repeated my freshman year of high school. It’s okay that I don’t know what I want to major in. It’s okay to live out my own story.


I am nearly finished reading a book called “Stepping Heavenward: A Woman’s Journey to Godliness” by Elizabeth Prentiss. Beginning at age 16 the protagonist, Katy writes in her journal about her life. This fictional novel was written and is set in the 1800’s, even so, this character’s struggles, emotions, thoughts, and feelings are so relatable to my own.  This novel has taught me about a fresh perspective towards Christ and my personal Christian walk. There have been many annotations made inside the book, and I’d like to share a few of my favorite quotes…

“In spite of my follies and my shortcomings, I do believe that God loves and pities me and will yet perfect that which concerneth me. It is a great mystery. But so is everything.”

“Don’t you see that the more Christ-like I become, the more I shall be filled with love for every living thing?”

“But I see more and more that happiness is not dependent on health or any other outside  prosperity.”

“…God’s ways are infinitely perfect; that we are to love Him for what He is and therefore equally as much when He afflicts as when He prospers us; and that there is no real happiness but in doing and suffering His will; and that this life is but a scene of probation through which we pass to the real life above.” 

In 15 days I turn 19. This past year God has taught me so much. And I look forward to another year of learning. Life is sweet, oh so sweet. Through tears of pain and tears of joy, God is God. To Him be the glory.

Jesus once said, “If anyone chooses to do God’s will, he will find out whether my teaching comes from God or whether I speak on my own. He who speaks on his own does so to gain honor for himself, but he who works for the honor of the one who sent him is a man of truth; there is nothing false about him.” (John 7:17-18)

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