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“Go for what you want.” -Lauren Dubinsky

I have had countless conversations with my mom, sisters, close friends, mentors, etc. about life. Specifically, about relationships and pursuing my passions.

This week, God has opened my eyes that I have been limiting God. I have been limiting the possibilities in my life. I have been defining how my life should be laid out.

Last night, I had a long conversation with my older sister. She is a very opinionated person, and I cherish her straightforwardness. She is more logical than I am, and helps me pin point where I have gone wrong. Last night she basically told me that I was falling for what I call, “The Christian woman formula”.

When it comes to living in the Bible belt of north Texas, It is easy to be charmed by the Christian woman formula.Graduate high school when you are 18. Go to college. Meet a Christian man. Marry him after you graduate college. Have babies. Etc.

I will admit, I am a more traditional type of person. That is part of who God made me to be, and I love it. And I cannot wait to be a wife someday.

Nonetheless, there IS a way to still be myself and not be sucked into the world of the Christian woman formula.

I repeated my freshman year of high school. I am 19 years old and counting down the weeks until my high school graduation. I have never dated anyone, and am eagerly anticipating to be wanted. I cannot wait to be married and share a deep companionship with God at the forefront. I am also stoked to begin college and embrace my young adulthood years.

When it comes down to it, I am incredibly young.

My older sister calls me a mere baby in the adult world.

I often think to myself I am mature enough to _______________. I know what I want so, I can _______________. I have legally been an adult for little more than a year, so I know now _______________. I know who God created me to be, therefore _______________. In my heart _______________.

The heart is more deceitful than all else and is desperately sick; who can understand it? Jeremiah 17:9

Watch over your heart with all diligence, for from it flow the springs of life. Proverbs 4:23

Seek the Lord. Seek guidance of those older than you. At this age we trick ourselves into believing we know what’s best for us. Ultimately, God knows. And sometimes at this young time in our life we tend to have a greater capacity to be prideful. Which makes it difficult for us to accept advice from those older with more life experience.

Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and turn away from evil. Proverbs 3:7

Acquire wisdom! Acquire understanding! Do not forget nor turn away from the words of my mouth.
“Do not forsake her, and she will guard you; love her, and she will watch over you. “The beginning of wisdom is: Acquire wisdom; and with all your acquiring, get understanding. Proverbs 4:5-7

O Lord, You have searched me and known me. You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you understand my thought from afar. You scrutinize my path and my lying down, and you are intimately acquainted with all my ways. Psalm 139:1-3

Two lies that I tend to fall for:

1) If my love life does not begin NOW, then it will never begin.

2) In order to fully enjoy my college years, I need to have the stereotypical college experience. (Disclaimer: There is nothing wrong in having the stereotypical college experience).

No, no, and no. Instead of focusing and dwelling on these lies. Instead of falling for the Christian woman formula. Instead of allowing yourself to feel inferior because you are not achieving the things the world says yes to, say no. Say no. And be you.

Oh, it’s delightful to have ambitions. I’m so glad I have such a lot. And there never seems to be any end to them– that’s the best of it. Just as soon as you attain to one ambition you see another one glittering higher up still. It does make life so interesting. Anne Shirley (AKA L.M. Montgomery)

Matthew 6:33 says, “Seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.” Be honest with God. Share with Him your heart. He knows your desires. He knows you. He loves you. He will give when you need, not necessarily when you want. Be the person He has created you to be. Live that person out. Live that story.

There are moments when one has to choose between living one’s own life, fully, entirely, completely-or dragging out some false, shallow, degrading existence that the world in its hypocrisy demands. Oscar Wilde



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